I received a text from my amazing coach Nichole today,
Working on your plan. You really only have four more weeks of tough training.
WHAT?!!!! I read that text and my first thought was WAIT, I am not ready!!!! Then I thought I still have 60 days, then part of me went, oh yeah baby, then the panic came back. The panic is back!!
My goal is to just finish this 70.3 Ironman! And not finish dead LAST. And I want to finish STRONG with a time I can be PROUD OF! Is that too much to ask?
But right now, I feel like Statler and Waldorf from the muppets are arguing in my head.
This is everything racing through my head right now.
- I am not ready
- I can’t do this
- I can do this!
- Will I be ready?
- Please body, almost there!
- I need to get faster and better!
- Dig deep, Meg
- Do I have everything I need?
- I am NOT READY!!
- OH &^%%!!!!!
- and other things that probably aren’t good to put in writing.
This is my rest week and I think my body is wanting to rest. I feel blah. No motivation. I did a simple brick today and it sucked. I was just going through the motions. Funny how my body knows when to back off and it PUSHES me to back off, even fights me a little when I try and do simple workouts. Knowing that this countdown is so close, I am going to fully enjoy this rest week. Both for my body and for my mind. I think my mind really needs to get a grip with the fact that I am doing this Ironman.
But now that I know the countdown is REALLY ON, holy crap!! I hope everything comes together.
As I write this, I am feeling an overwhelming sense of gratitude and my heart is so full for the people I have met along this journey.
For my coach Nichole, I COULD NOT HAVE DONE THIS WITHOUT YOU!
My teammates from Tri Living It & Master Swim. Each of you are so incredibly supportive, fun, amazing and inspiring. You push me to do better and be better. I am honored to know and call you each my friends. Thank you for all you have done for me.
(Insert a few tears here as I write this)
My new friend, the HeavyWeight Runner. She’s doing her first 70.3 Ironman on May 5 the day after me in Florida.
WOW! Flood of emotions right now. I bet Nichole didn’t know her text would start this tidal wave of emotions. haha!!
